So...it's been a slightly eventful couple of days in the ole hetox. I almost started a fling with tattoo boy, but managed to stop myself just in the nick of time. He asked me out on Saturday night, but I managed to resist and am glad I did. Once he realized that I was onto his "trouble" and I had tried explaining to him that I was on a man detox, he threw a tantrum and I haven't heard from him since. I can only imagine what actually seeing him would have been like! That'll learn me...no more young bad boys. NO more.
Was feeling down in the dumps today, and fielded work from the comfort of my couch. Still clearly upset about SR's most recent disappearing act and even though I've let him go in many ways, it still just agitates me that someone could just leave things as they currently are. I feel like I deserve more than that stupid facebook note he wrote me 2 weeks ago.
Randomly came across a message I had missed from JD's ex. JD is this academic superstar ecologist/conservationist that travels the world or lives tucked away in a cabin up in the mountains of Utah; we've been having an on-again off-again thing with since we met in Paris last year...After we had spent the entire weekend together last winter, he emailed me a confessional that he was in an "open" relationship that probably wouldn't last. He only just broke up with her a few months ago. Well, according to his ex it wasn't quite as open as he made it sound, and now I'm left with this message in my inbox and I'm not sure what to do with it. Write her back? I guess it's not my drama, but I was a part of it. Ugh...
Sigh.
It blows my mind, really. And I must say, I'm just disheartened in men in general. My own romantic situations, those I hear about through my friends. Is it all worth it? Are all men cowards? Do all men cheat and hurt? Do all men freak out and get insecure and run away? Do all men talk the talk but not walk the walk? Or are these just the ones I attract? Are boring, conservative types any better? I wonder. I really do... Discouraging.
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